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Wren's avatar

Labels have always been something I seek out to understand myself better and find validation for what I’m feeling. Going from suspecting autism to be pretty darn sure has been a godsend, because for whatever reason (let’s be real, the people pleasing reason) I felt immense shame whenever I felt my autistic reactions to certain things, and instead of communicating my needs, I tried to squash them. Now instead of thinking “I hate when people touch me, but I just need to get over it,” I think “I am touch averse because my brain is literally wired different,” which has given me permission to communicate I don’t want to be touched.

Onto the high and low functioning labels: I really like how you discussed this. If I’d had an official diagnosis, I’d probably be considered “high functioning,” but only in the public eye. I would frequently have what I now recognize as meltdowns when the expectations of basic life became too high for me to conquer, such as not being able to find parking when already running late, or if a plan changed last minute. Academically I thrived, but I also had a specific bathroom stall at my college where I would go to curl up in the corner and cry when I got overstimulated or even slightly embarrassed (aka felt I failed at being normal).

I feel like neurotypical folks/general society created these labels without understanding the ups and downs even the most “high functioning” autistic people may experience. Some days are good, some days I can’t take care of myself. I rely heavily on frozen chicken nuggets and meal prepping for such occasions, and it took me years of therapy to be able to not dissociate while driving. I long for that autopia where there is no shame surrounding various levels of function and the focus is on getting needs met rather than how well we can blend into neurotypical society.

Thank you so much for your writing ❤️ sorry for the essay lol, I’m all or nothing.

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Teddy Webb's avatar

I don’t see any point in trying to change what labels people do or don’t identify with, but I personally have no issue being described as having low support needs and don’t think it flattens my identity as an Autistic person. I spend a lot of time working with Autistic people typically described as high needs, and feel this has really given me a sense of solidarity with my wider Autistic community; despite my chattiness, I’ll often have more in common with a nonverbal Autistic child described as high support needs than any of the neurotypical people at work, so in that sense, I definitely agree that us Autistic folk have more in common across different support needs than we do separating us. At the same time, even though I struggle with a lot of things, I simply don’t need the level of full-time care needed to give high support needs Autistic people the best life possible, and have a lot of privileges they don’t. I don’t see it as being about dividing or flattening our identities so much as recognising that, even within the same community, we have differing access needs to help us all thrive and differing levels of privilege. Sorry for the long comment, I find this such an interesting topic and one you’ve talked about with a lot of nuance here is all so I wanted to reply with that same level!

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